Okay so I have been stuck with family for the last year long time of 7 days. NOW FOREVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME THEY ALL KNOW I AM THE MOST ANTI-SOCIAL person even with my family. I am so done with all of there stuff and WEDDINGS I AM NEVER EVER going to have one ever!!!! I'm sorry this Journal is more for screaming though I am pretty sure I am going to do something stupid anyway. I hate most of my cuzins from out of state and am just so ready to explode!!! Then my own flesh and blood replaces me with someone else I'm ranting and I have no idea of how much pain I'm feeling anymore. But a BIG BREAK DOWN SEEMS BEST NOW! I'm helpless in many ways. ANd it's not even clearing I am just going to hopefully sleep this all off. WOw I have cussed yet. Accoplishment right there. I am off now and lets hope I am not too stupid tonight. Later